> "Um... I know that becoming a youkai means no longer being human, but I'm not sure I'm aware of any other specific consequences of it. Is it mind-altering somehow?"
>She nods. "It means just that. The act of becoming isn't an innately bad thing, though in times past it was seen that way. But, if you must, think of it as akin to making love to someone. The act itself isn't bad and doesn't mean that you are no longer yourself. But the ramifications and feelings incurred from it may change you. In the old days, you would be shunned for it, if not hated, but this seems not to be true anymore. Even then, it will remain a stigma on your soul that you rescinded who you are, be it for power. dissatisfaction, obsession, or any of the other myriad reasons. You will incur suspicion for it. It is only natural, I am afraid. In your particular case, it will make it much harder for you to leave Gensokyo, as well. It is a place for youkai. Worst of all, it will incur a karmic debt that must be paid, if not in this life, then in another. To rescind one's birth is to turn one's back on karma."
>She smiles and pats your shoulder. "But, it isn't all doom and gloom. Even though it will harm your karma, that can be repaid. It may change who you are, or it may not. That depends on the strength of your soul. You will be regarded with suspicion, but this can be overcome. You may well decide it is what you want to be for whatever reason touches you. If nothing else, I'd like to feel I have overcome most of the trials involved."
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