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INBOUND WALL OF TEXT (jeez I feel bad about posting this, it's just so much random bullspit because I find it hard to be concise, I tried to remedy that with underlines but it did not help much because some things are bordering on being quite important to me and it's hard to judge them in zeroes and ones as relevant/irrelevant, save for off-topic)
While I would not mind seeing you again on the server long-term as the roaming hermit (I can cover the Eraiya-style contributions minus the inventory hacking)
That's kind of you but ah, would you stop with that hacking thing!... I told you already, explained in detail, even, in the previous topic, how I legitimately farmed these six or seven music disks. And why I had so many leftover minecarts from my failed minecraft-based cargo hold project.
And yeah, I thought you would hold a grudge against me (I wrote the post before speaking with EP, I feel a little better about it now), so
I just wanted to make you sure that you knew that I really did not want to go anywhere anyone's public property with any placeable blocks in hand for a while. So that you at the very least knew that I was not going to grief. (Because I said earlier that I liked the graffiti thing. It might have left you worried, but let me assure again that I really do not plan on making makeovers of others' creation a surprise.)
You know, Doc. It's simple, though I tend to overcomplicate things. I belong to MotK and I don't belong to any other community that plays minecraft, so I don't know any other server. I don't wanna play anywhere else. The duping thing? It can wait. It is obviously an excuse because I could probably set up a multiplayer server myself for these purposes. I'm not that curious about it, though, and someone else who knows the bug will probably take care of testing it and make sure that everyone and Jeb's mother knows about it, because that's how information works on the interwebs.
The more words I utter, the more and more convoluted, off-topic and self-contradictory it ends up looking as I keep changing my mind and as I start to feel different about things over time. So the second sentence from my first post on the last page of the previous thread holds the most true reason of them all: "I miss you guys".If you feel like it, fine, I can wait a month, half a year or an eternity until you feel comfortable enough about the thought of having me and my incessant malarkey around or until you feel good enough to think that you are able to take the risk of having to put up with the aftermath of a griefing spree on which I might go despite repeated claims of having no such intent (and you are rightly suspicious, because today I might behave, but who knows what tomorrow holds? the trick it, it applies to everyone.), pulling a Tomhoffman and proving that I am very antisocial and/or just overall dangerous to others' well-being indeed. (Which I actually am, but hey, I've got medicine for that, and some will to learn how society works, but that's a different story. I really do hope it will end well, though.)
I wonder why no other person convicted for crimes against the server ever spoke in the thread again, though. I mean, whew what they did was not smart. It happens, but everyone should get over it one day. Is it like they do not care anymore? Why would they not want to try hard to redeem themselves and prove that they've learned a lesson and make everyone happy? That'd be very Touhou-ish, too... Maybe it hurts their pride to have to ask for forgiveness, as that could be considered begging under certain circumstances, but that's not how it works... I don't know, guys. :\ Maybe it is me who is not doing the right thing bothering you and i really do not want to bother anyone, but how do I know when I am pushing things too far? Why dare I even defy Doc's and Stuffman's judgment? Sure, I am myself so I can speak about myself, but how do I know if I know myself?
I mean, how do I know for sure that I can control myself enough to be sure that I will not do any harm unto others? Surely my will is weak and I find it hard to resist temptations, though there has been some improvement in that department during that year, I just realized. I yearn for a second chance, because it's like a test. Even I don't know the outcome.
I feel confident that I will not attempt vandalising other people's things without permission again. You can never be sure, but in my language it's the closest equivalent of saying "I'm sure".Ah, this message changed so much during the hour as I added more and more to it. Standing back and taking a look at this abomination of a post I've just conceived made me realize: I'm sure I can do it. I care. I wrote much more than I should have. I only ever open up to people like that when I know I want to be with them. Which by the way is why I have so few friends. Because it totally does not work in real life. Ordinarily you would just chat people up with small talk before moving up step by step and growing more intimate over time, while I just outright show myself both at my best and at my worst at the same time right off the bat, and am instantly branded as a weirdo, very much rightly so. Not that I mind, really, those who accepted me is all I need. So don't be like that if you want to befriend many people IRL... But enough about that.
The most important question of them all is THIS:
will the Hell of Blazing Fires be located in the overworld or in the Nether? I think the Nether would suit it more, being already pretty hellish. And infested with ghasts. Hey. Get it? Because they rain danmaku on your head. 
EDIT: Eh, I'm done. Mother of God. This started off as a quick response to EP and a nudge to Doc and Stuffman to reconsider their decision before it all went to hell... sorry?...
