Creativity isn't so much knowing what to draw as it is... wanting to, I guess. It's the drive. Having ideas, and thinking differently than everyone else.
Creativity doesn't make you draw better, it makes what you draw unique, and individualizing is very important in anything you pursue.
Also, this is completely unrelated and probably not my place, and I might be completely wrong, but... I feel like you're really doubting yourself, TERMspeon. I don't know why, but your words seem to ring with frustration, which can definitely be understood, and you're probably under some unfair amount of pressure. I've definitely had the feeling, when I'm just looking at manga and beautiful art and pose pictures and anatomy books and banging your head wondering, "WTFISDRAWINGIHATEMYSELFICAN'TDOIT"
What really pulled me out of it was finding this girl's blog; you might know her, she worked on Katawa Shoujo and does a lot of Touhou things:
http://raemz.wordpress.comSeeing masterpieces and high level art only hurts my self esteem. Seeing really bad art teaches me nothing but the wrong things.
However, getting an email every week (I subscribed to her blog) filled with progress sketches and just random scribbly nonsense? It should've been fairly obvious, but knowing that the pros who make incomprehensibly gorgeous art
also make rough, crude sketches without detail, without clean professionalism, without caring about what the critics will say:
Without attention to "drawing well." Rather, enjoying the feeling of making "art..."
That's what made me let loose, stop caring about what every individual finger on a hand looked like. Somehow that made me love sketching and drawing and myself, however conceited that sounds.
WAN I RAMBLED FOR SO LONG I'M SO SORRY... It's a wall of condescending text...
I know I sound really demeaning and you might be in a completely different situation that I seem to be imagining so I'm sorry for being assuming. Whatever it may be, please forgive me, and good luck.