Ok, calmed down slightly now.. warm water is good...
I think I said this somewhere before, but in high school I used to be a part of a gang, we fight and shit like that. One time, there was this really big fight towards the near end of my high school life. I nearly died when someone stabbed me with a rusty screwdriver, I was at the hospital, they say they had to use adrenaline on me because I practically was dead somewhat at some point. I had an infection there, even bacteria inside due to the rust, and for nearly 2 weeks, fevers and everything bad happened. I felt death staring at me in the eyes every single night during those 2 weeks, and it felt like 2 years.