After doing some thinking, I've realized something.
While certainly, a lot of losses I've had in ranked recently are not my fault [I had Sonas who fired their ults BACKWARDS today. MULTIPLE TIMES.], I've still not been performing good enough.
You could say while I'm not the reason we lose, I'm not doing enough to ensure we win either. I don't look at a game and say 'I carried that'. I look at a game and think 'Yeah I tanked a ton and helped someone else carry!', or 'Argh I tanked a ton and C.C'ed all I could but my team can't win!'. I should be CARRYING, not being some superglue.
I'm not winning lanes, I'm going even, or just outfarming a bit, or even losing, then coming back with farm and teamfight. If there's one thing I know to do, it's how to not die earlygame [Being a tank player dying in teamfights is usually a good thing if you save others at the same time]
My jungle roster is stale. Maokai is falling out of popularity, and does pretty awful against the Trinity right now [Jarvan/Xin/Vi]
My ADC is plain bad, and I never get to play mid. When I play top about the only tops I can play are Rumble and Singed to a good enough level where I can win lanes.
I pretty much only play tanks, and I'm too reserved with my ADC.
This is obviously a side-effect of me pretty much skipping the Silver Boundry when I carried myself to Gold in the Preseason pretty much only playing Maokai.
The question is, what do I do to improve? Right now, Normals are too easy, and I don't gain anything from them. However, laning in ranked, I'm too far behind Gold level [I'm probobly mid-silvers in lane?], and my roster and playstyle is still stuck in Season 2.
What should I do to get myself going again? How can I improve if I'm too far behind to get much from playing gold players, and I'm too far ahead of Normals to get anything from those except a sense of 'ROFLStomp'. [Not to mention I never get to play mid/top in Normals, someone's always faster, or worse, outright ignores me and locks anyway]
Tl;DR:
Rai does OK usually. He's fed up with doing OK and needs to do awesome to carry derpy Sonas that fire backwards ults, but doesn't know how to make that jump.
I think in the last 30 ranked games I've played, I can only honestly say I carried one, and that was as Swain. Maybe a second with Support Zyra.