So yeah, I finished 50k, and I've been tweaking stuff rather than really making progress. I need to really stop with that. -_-
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Sango?s post was, in a word, unnerving.
The Izu islands were good way apart, so she would only typically have time to watch each island on its own for an hour or so before moving on to the next. She could afford to not be right next to an island if its volcano were to let loose - the heaving pillars of smoke would be something of a giveaway.
The islands themselves varied in size considerably - some were large enough to populate several thousand humans, while others were inhabited only by a few hundred, and some held no trace whatsoever of human life. Compared to the bustling, technologically dependent lives of those on Japan?s larger islands, the people here lived simpler, slower lives without the various gadgets and gizmos that people insisted they couldn?t live without. There was electricity, perhaps, but it was far from being the next Shibuya in terms of cultural advances.
All that mattered to Sango was that the people here seemed to care about what happened to their waste. Maybe life on a tiny island brought the whole litter issue to the forefront, considering that litter was more obvious in a small space than in a large square. Throwing it out to sea wasn?t an option either, so on most of these islands the residents would gather their garbage together at the end of the week, to be ferried off to the mainland where it could be better taken care of.
See, why can?t all the humans think like that?
Watching from a safe distance out in dolphin form, Sango found herself immersed in the simple everyday life of the townspeople on these tiny islands simply because she had so little to do otherwise. Life here seemed simple and unrewarding, with no-one that could be considered truly rich (save the elderly living out their last years in privacy on the company pension). There was no ambition, no potential to really become well-known or respected beyond the tiny society of the island. On top of that, the smaller islands resembled the tiny villages that always showed up in fiction, where everyone knew everyone else and gossip never expanded beyond who?d bought themselves a new dress during their last trip to Tokyo.
Sango watched these simple lives unfold with what could only be described as confusion. There was no obvious sign that these people were unhappy with their lot in life. Perhaps they could be irritated or saddened at times, but those emotions seemed to be the exception rather than the rule. For the most part, they were happy in anonymity, doing simple jobs for measly wages and living almost unknown lives.
What?s with these people? Do they not know about all the cool stuff they?re missing out on or what?
Sango didn?t know much about human life, but she?d witnessed the last generation of technology being thrown out to sea in droves, and the Izu islands weren?t even close to that level of convenience. There was so much out there that they could earn themselves - bigger homes, one of those fancy ?car? things, all sorts of new outfits and clothes to show off in. Yet here they were, doing nothing to expand and staying stagnant and forgotten.
Maybe they were waiting around for a disaster, just like she was. They would prove themselves when a volcano erupted, and get a big job back on the mainland. That idea went out of her head quickly, though - the odds of drying were too high for anyone sane to risk. Sango was only out here because the water would be nowhere near as badly affected as the land if an eruption were to occur.
Maybe they?re sick...?
Sango nodded to herself in confirmation as she found her answer. It didn?t make any sense for people to avoid expanding - what point was there in a life where nothing you did had any real meaning, and you died unremembered by everyone save a few loved ones? They were crazy, then - it was the only answer. There had to be a madness hidden inside these otherwise ordinary people. Didn?t there?
She stopped pondering the point after a short while. She wasn?t here to act as a psychologist for these villagers, she was here to act as their janitor and clean up their mess. Or at least, their volcano?s mess. Time wore on, and she found herself working further into the mainland to reach the next island in the archipelago.
She had already decided on a schedule and system. She would sleep in the seas north of the islands, wake up at dawn, and inspect the islands one by one until she had made her way to Tori-Shima in the south. Her only concerns were islands with active volcanoes and (to a lesser extent) any island that was inhabited. After checking the volcano on Tori-Shima, she would turn around and do the same again, returning back to the coast of Hokkaido by the time the sun set. That would be her routine until the sixth day, when instead of sleeping early she?d take the long trip back home to earn herself a much deserved night?s sleep.
Tori-Shima had always been the most disturbing of the islands to visit, because unlike the surrounding islands it was in fact still active. The eruption itself was under the surface, though, so there was no threat to human life, but even approaching it Sango could feel the water around her rising to incredible temperatures. She couldn?t venture too close, lest the water burned her, but she knew that the wildlife here had suffered immensely, both above the surface and beneath it. It hurt to look at, but it was her job to watch and ensure the situation didn?t change from bad to worse. So far, it looked like it was wrecking the ecology no more than it usually was, so it was time to start the trip back towards the mainland.
This routine was now bringing her around to one of the smallest inhabited islands in the group - the island of To-Shima. With a populace of roughly three hundred, it was almost irrelevant to Sango?s interest. There wasn?t even a volcano there for her to be concerned about. If anything, there was more plant life - four fifths of the land was covered in forest, and it was said they turned a glorious shade of red when the camellia flowers within bloomed. Not that a fact like that meant anything to Sango, given that it was halfway through June right now, but it was something to keep in mind a few months down the line.
Most of the houses in the city were packed together on the northern coast, still not numbering more than roughly a hundred homes. The island?s biggest export was fishing, which was always a difficult issue for the Del-Sancti to consider. On one hand, taking fish from the sea was damaging the ecosystem, but mankind had been fishing for food and sustenance since the beginning of time. The Del-Sancti had come to a compromise, agreeing only to intervene if man threatened to hunt a species of fish into extinction, though that didn?t stop a few well-meaning Initiates from ramming into a fishing boat to freak out its passengers.
Hm?
As Sango approached the island from behind on the return trip, she noticed a little house on its own at the island?s west coast. It was a gaudy little house, painted a shade of red that was probably intended to match the surrounding flowers when winter came. A small pier poked out from in front of the house, nothing like the port on the north coast which took in full-grown ferries by the day. It currently housed a smaller fishing boat, perhaps enough to fit a dozen men and their equipment without sinking itself.
Her curiosity piqued, Sango allowed herself to pull closer to the house. It was clearly hand-crafted, built by a man?s blood, sweat, and tears, and the work was of an impressive calibre. It seemed to be old, though, a good fifteen years or so, and the paint was beginning to wear slightly. It reminded her of the academy, in the same way that she would remember one ruin by looking at another. A light still shone in the upper floor, though, so the building was definitely inhabited.
The other thing Sango quickly became aware of as she approached the house was a bundle of clothing lying on the pier. A bright orange dress had grown slightly damp as it lay on the wood, large enough to fit maybe a twelve-year-old girl. The ladder at the side had seen a lot of use as well, and Sango?s eyes turned to the surface of the water just off the coast. A small tube poked a few inches above the ocean, confirming her suspicions.
A human...?
Sango dipped down under the water, looking out to sea. A figure hung in the distance just under the surface, swimming comfortably as it broke away from the shore. She pulled closer behind it, by far the faster swimmer, and the dress?s owner soon came into Sango?s full view. She was clad in a light-orange outfit, reminding Sango of the cadet?s uniform - though student outfits never had those little frills running along the waist. On her feet were those fancy fin contraptions the humans had come up with to help with swimming, and the tube Sango had seen on the surface ran down until it was clamped around the girl?s lips. A snorkel, didn?t they call it? Mankind wasn?t impressive physically, but their knack for inventions was absurd.
The swimmer seemed to be looking around for something, still unaware of Sango?s presence behind her. Sango saw her head tilt, finally stopping on a school of fish approaching from a few metres deep. After a quick breath, the girl tipped downwards and kicked with impressive force to dive further into the water, bringing herself down to the school?s level. Sango?s attention grew more serious - given that she?d already considered these people a little bit kooky, she wouldn?t put it beyond the child to grab a fish straight out of the ocean and serve it for dinner.
The diver didn?t go to that extreme, though, settling for running her hand along the fish as they passed her. She turned around as the school moved on, allowing Sango to see the look of wonder in her bright brown eyes. Her short auburn hair bounced around in the water, a jumbled mess in comparison to Sango?s own.
Then, of course, the girl?s attention turned to Sango.
Uh-oh.
Being seen at this point was hardly a disaster - after all, to this girl?s eyes, Sango was just a dolphin. But given the excited look on her face, the diver was hardly going to let Sango just swim away and get back to her job. Her eyes widened, and she started rubbing her hands together in satisfaction.
It was now that Sango appreciated just how hard it was to move backwards underwater. She couldn?t propel herself backward in this form, and changing back into the human form would be outright suicide. The diver began to approach, her eyes glistening in wonder.
Um. Sorry, on a tight schedule, have to-
Sango felt her mind go blank as the girl?s hand rubbed against her head. She patted her, stroking her gently, and Sango felt her heart melt. She?d never been petted before - Kiyoshi had tried it once during a training session, and it had earned him a slap in the face with her tail. She?d been caught off guard this time, though, and despite every professional instinct she?d ever produced kicking in she found herself staying in place and enjoying the feeling.
This was the first contact she?d had with any living thing in hours. Six days of work made a lonely Initiate out of Sango, and she suddenly appreciated the feeling of being noticed by something that wasn?t a fish. Not just that - she was being appreciated, played with, cared about. It was beautiful, clouding Sango?s judgement in a way that would inevitably earn her a lecture or twelve from the Sensei.
Of course, that was assuming the Sensei had to find out.
...I guess I can afford to be a little late. I?ve got a new fan, and I?m not in the mood to disappoint.
Sango turned to the diver, nodding in satisfaction. The girl looked like she was struggling to keep herself from squealing in excitement, continuing her petting.
It?d only be a few minutes. Nothing that would put her off her schedule, or get her to finish up late. It?d be fine.
Just fine.
Just - oh, that one tingled...
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It was a passing thought that she couldn?t remember ever ?playing? with anyone before.
She understood the concept, even if the closest she?d experienced up until now was reading about it in the old plays of the Del-Sancti. Fun was something only really meant for other people - Initiates like her had no time to frolicking about when there were seas to protect and pollution to stop. They were to find pleasure and pride in their work alone, without relief or recreation. Their job was to ensure the creatures of the sea could enjoy the waters in their prime condition, sacrificing their own freedom for the good of all.
Playing around on the job was one of the closest things the Del-Sancti held as a sin. Yet here Sango was, spending time she could have been using to do her duty on nothing useful - and with a human, no less! She would be lucky to keep her belt if the higher-ups heard about this. She?d been told outright that contact with humans of any sort was forbidden, dangerous, prohibited, and every other word they could pull out from their dictionaries and their plays to prove the point.
But if what she was doing now was a crime against her people, why did it feel so right?
This human girl she had come across seemed thrilled just by Sango?s presence, like her arrival was something of a dream come true for her. She petted Sango endlessly, never tiring of the feeling of her hand running along the dolphin?s back, and Sango likewise would have sat there and let her do it for as long as she wanted. It wasn?t just the strange, comfortable feeling that the contact seemed to bring into her - it was the feeling of acceptance, of affection, the sort that the Del-Sancti had discarded long ago out of apparent necessity. No Delphi had ever approached her with this honesty, this purity of character. Kiyoshi had tried, yes, but there was still too much about him that she couldn?t be comfortable with.
Now, though, Sango could tell this girl?s excitement and enthusiasm was entirely genuine. It wasn?t the genuine ?I-love-you-and-always-want-to-be-with-you? affection, but the sort of childish adoration that pulled at the heartstrings. That sort of zest was contagious, seeping into Sango as the diver continued to stroke her. She had to surface every minute or so for a breath, reminding Sango of just how limited these humans were, but every time she came back down as quickly as she could without showing a hint of exhaustion. Petting and stroking slowly advanced into hugs, and as the girl?s arms wrapped around her Sango felt the warm feeling inside of her grow more and more vibrant.
Before she could stop herself, Sango had offered herself as a mount, and the girl quickly sat on her. Her eyes focused on Sango?s tail for a while, running along its length in a way that made Sango shudder. It was sensitive, but the uncomfortable sort, and her passenger quickly learned to leave Sango?s rear end alone.
The girl pointed a finger upwards, indicating that she wanted to be taken to the surface. Sango almost complied, but suddenly a question started to form in her mind.
Crap. Won?t I look pretty smart if I do that?
Dolphins were known in human civilisation to be smarter than most creatures, but wild dolphins probably wouldn?t have been able to equate a finger point to ?go up?. Eventually Sango settled for a compromise, rising upwards slightly so that the girl?s snorkel broke the surface again, but not high enough that she could breathe without the contraption. She seemed satisfied enough with the resolution, and offered Sango another petting as a reward for semi-obeying the order.
Momentarily, Sango wondered how the Del-Sancti would function if employees were paid in pettings. Then she remembered that it would probably be Oi doing the honours, and quickly discarded the idea.
The girl, assuming now that Sango could understand her body language, pointed forwards out to sea.
Uh. You sure about that?
This girl still looked pretty young to Sango. Even as far out as she?d found her there was a risk of her getting in big trouble if her legs were to cramp up, and going out even further was more of a risk still. Sango looked upwards with concern, but the swimmer gave her an eager nod in return. Sango was conflicted - she was taking risks by leading this girl further from the coast, but at the same time she didn?t want to disappoint her. She?d introduced a feeling like nothing Sango had ever felt before, and it would be wrong to take that and offer nothing in return.
In the end, the need to please won out over the need to protect, and Sango started preparing herself for a quick dash. The girl looped her legs around Sango?s body for support, looking almost on the verge of tears. Possibly. It was hard to tell in the water.
Alright. Time to show you what the Del-Sancti?s best Initiate can do!
Sango kicked violently through the sea, picking up speed at an astounding rate. The girl was quickly won over by Sango?s display of haste, clapping as Sango heard a vague squealing noise coming from behind the snorkel. She was going fast, faster than she had ever thought a dolphin could swim.
Not just that, but faster than Sango thought she could ever swim as well.
Wait...huh?
She hadn?t been practicing her stop-start swimming recently, but she was cutting through the water with a speed she?d never had before. She?d never been this fast during training, or during her sneak-trips to the surface, but now she just seemed to have a strength that she?d never possessed back then. Maybe it was just the pressure pushing her on, but Sango was almost as excited by her own pace as her rider was.
And whatever it is...it feels pretty damn good!
How fast was she going? Swordfish speed? No, it had to be more than that. She may as well have been a marlin, she was bursting through the water at that sort of pace. Her passenger grew more and more enamoured by the second, looking set to hug Sango to death the moment she got a chance. They were at breakneck pace now, schools of fish and lumbering rocks passing by at their sides in instants. There was barely enough time for Sango to see another creature coming up in the murky depths before she zoomed past it.
This also applied for obstacles Sango would rather have avoided.
Ah?!
In the poor visibility of the open sea, Sango only just caught sight of the net as it came up on the horizon. It had been placed some time ago - Sango had seen it on the way past - but it was still very much able to tangle and entwine anything unlucky enough to get caught in it. At the speed she was going, Sango didn?t have enough time to move out of the net?s way. Her passenger only had enough time to widen her eyes in shock as she saw what they were about to collide with.
In a move of total desperation, Sango put on the brakes. She pulled herself to a stop in the water, cutting short her momentum with what she assumed was panic giving her the extra boost she needed to stop short of the net. She felt her back growing lighter as she stopped, her eyes clamped shut without having the nerve to look at the oncoming threat.
Sango took a moment to realise she?d come to a stop and hadn?t wrapped herself up in the trap. She nearly relaxed as she opened her eyes.
Then she realised her passenger hadn?t been so lucky.
!!!
Sango had killed off her momentum so quickly that the girl riding on her back hadn?t been able to keep hold. While Sango had stopped, she?d kept going, and landed herself firmly within the grasp of the net. Sango focused her attention on her the moment she opened her eyes, seeing her start on trying to free herself, but every attempt to undo her bonds only seemed to make them even more complex. Panic was already starting to set in, and the girl wasted precious air with few panicked gurgles, rising out in vain through the now-useless snorkel.
She was in trouble. Deep, deep trouble. Sango was afraid something would happen if she tried this, and sure enough all of her fears had come painfully true. Trying to help however she could, Sango swam over to the net and started to pick at it, but with no arms or fingers to grab at the net with there was little she could do, and even then she was stifled by the girl?s flailing around from inside the net.
There was no other way to look at it. At this rate, the girl was going to drown, and it would all be Sango?s fault.
Dammit, dammit, dammit...!
If only she could transform here - with her hands she?d have a good chance at tearing the net and pulling her back to the surface - but if she was already committing a crime by being here, revealing her true form to a human was a capital offense. It?d be worse than anything else she could possibly have done, deserving of the highest of punishments - death, with no room for negotiation. She would be putting the safety of the entire Del-Sancti in danger by showing her existence to humanity, but if she didn?t she would have no choice but to watch the girl die.
She wondered what Oi would have thought of the situation. Most likely, she?d think that it was a neat way of the situation resolving itself - silencing the witness before she could tell anyone about how strange the dolphin she just met was. Jack...what would Jack say? Dealing with humans was a situation he seemed to deliberately work his way around in class - he?d help with pollutants and sea creatures, but man was a being he offered no advice against.
There was no time for that sort of rambling, though. This was literally a do-or-die decision. Either Sango took the risk and saved her, or she swam away with an innocent girl?s blood on her hands. She caught a glimpse of the trapped swimmer?s eyes - looking set to cry again, but this time for a totally different reason.
That was the tipping point.
Seeing that fear, that panic in the girl?s eyes was enough to numb Sango?s mind. She forgot the rules of the Del-Sancti momentarily, the ones that would have her sentenced to death if she considered even trying to save this human.
How can I call myself a member of the Del-Sancti...
The girl had stopped struggling now, just about resigned to her fate. That made it all too easy for Sango to approach her now, putting her face right up to the next. A moment later, it was a hand reaching out at the ropes instead.
...if I can?t even clean up my own damn mess?!
The diver?s eyes widened as they looked on Sango?s form. The Delphi had no time to pay attention to that as she started ripping at the ropes with her bare hands, putting all of her energy into tearing open a passage for her newest acquaintance. It came to her surprisingly easily - maybe the ropes were frayed with age, but she had freed the girl in half the time she?d thought it would take. Obviously, the girl burst for the surface the instant her bonds were undone, and following her up to the surface Sango was relieved to hear her gasping for air.
?Haah, haah, hah...?
She was panting for dear life, still shaken by the whole ordeal. Without thinking about what she was doing, Sango had put a hand on her shoulder to try and calm her down. It worked its magic, and after she?d caught her breath the girl seemed to be just about relaxed.
Her attention then turned to a somewhat more serious matter. A few words slipped out of her mouth in Japanese.
?You...you?re...?
She looked up at Sango in wonder, but not the same childish wonder she?d had before. This was sheer awe, amazement, confusion, and generally being unable to compute what she was seeing. She could hardly be blamed for it - it was a sight that no human had witnessed in centuries and lived to tell the tale.
Suddenly, the memories of the Del-Sancti and their laws came back to Sango with all the friendliness of a sledgehammer to the face.
?P-Ph...phwee...?
Sango?s body started to shake uncontrollably. Now she was the one panicking. She?d been seen, in the flesh, by a human. The Del-Sancti would have her head for this, no doubt. Her brain went into total lockdown, and instinct alone pushed her into diving deeper into the water at a pace the human couldn?t hope to follow.
?H-Hey, wait!?
The girl called out to her from the surface, but by the time she?d looked back under the water Sango was long gone. The Delphi kept diving deeper, deeper, deeper still, making sure that the girl would never have the tiniest chance of following her, only stopping when she couldn?t see what was in front of her face.
And now, while no-one was looking, she held her head in her hands and cried. Now she understood why playing with the humans was forbidden, but it was far too late.
What have I done...?
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As she sat on the seabed, Sango?s brain was firmly in the off position. She was touching without feeling, looking without seeing, hearing without listening. Her day?s routine had grown absolutely mechanical, precise to the minute as she shifted from one island to the next. Her heart had gone numb, and even the sight of the volcano on Tori-Shima wasn?t enough to invoke a response from her. She couldn?t let herself think.
If she started thinking, that face would work its way into her head again. The look of confusion on the girl?s face as Sango showed her true form. The look that had consigned her to a death sentence, simply because she had saved a girl?s life.
Then again, it was Sango who had caused the problem in the first place, wasn?t it? She should have caught herself, slowed down to prepare for anything that came up. Instead she?d let everything come apart, and in the space of a few minutes she had gone from high-hoping Initiate to cold-blooded traitor. Her mind started to play through the worst case scenario the instant she let her guard down - everyone looking at her with disdain and scorn, wishing she?d never been born and eager to see her dead.
They?d get their wish, no doubt. Crimes like hers were worthy of the most gruesome execution the Del-Sancti had to offer - The Traitor?s Penance. It was a fitting name, because the criminal would have more than enough time to reflect on their sins before their sentence was acted out - they were locked in a flooded tank for as long as it would take for them to drown. For a Delphi, that could take hours, and they would either be spent vainly trying to escape their prison or sitting in the corner, regretting their mistakes and begging in vain for salvation. The cadets even passed around horror stories about ghosts who?d been put through the Penance, and were so disturbed by the ordeal they were unable to pass on in spirit.
It was nothing but a rumour, of course, but it did nothing to calm Sango now. In her head she was already playing out the scene - trapped in a tank barely large enough to contain her, feet chained to the floor so she couldn?t kick at the walls and free herself, left simply beating her head against the wall in desperation. Jack and Oi were watching to ensure she didn?t escape, and in all honesty Sango found those expressions they were wearing more frightening than the thought of her own death. The disappointment, the shame-
No!
She stopped herself before she dwindled into outright paranoia. Rational thought, rational thought. Two things. Important things. One. They couldn?t prove it. They didn?t know. No-one saw it. No-one knew about it. She was on duty, and that was all they knew. Two, she?d done no harm. She?d revealed herself to one human child. The kid would probably be written off as hallucinating in a life-or-death situation. They?d suspect nothing. Besides, the people of these islands were definitely a little weird even before then. Who would trust the word of a human who was perfectly fine living one of the dullest lives mankind had to offer?
So she?d screwed up. That was definitely true. But they didn?t have to know about it. Nothing was stopping her from telling the Sensei exactly what she wanted to hear. The seas were fine, the people were as unusual as always, and the volcanoes no closer to erupting than they were the day beforehand. It never had to come up, and no-one would ever have to know about this act.
That would involve lying, though, and Sango was bad at that. If the Dean caught her acting nervous she might press for answers, and if she heard of sightings from local humans about a dolphin-girl she?d be finished. She knew herself well enough to know that she?d never be able to act calm and hide the facts from that stern, ice-cold glare of Oi?s. That left her only one option; an option she approached unwillingly, but out of sheer necessity. She began to kick for the surface, steeling her nerves and preparing herself for the upcoming ordeal.
As a sect that depended on secrecy to function, the Del-Sancti had learned many ways to relieve people of troublesome memories. By the modern day, though, only one such ritual remained, and it was almost impossible to perform on a willing human subject.
Nothing was stopping her from performing the ritual on herself, however.
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The sun was setting by the time Sango had re-emerged from the depths. Before anything else, she made sure to swim well away from the islands - this ritual would need her to shift out of dolphin form, and more witnesses on top of what there already were would be the nail in the coffin right now. It was dark, but not so much that she couldn?t see, and more importantly the waters were almost tranquil out here.
She bit her lip. She didn?t know how it felt to have her own memory wiped. A Delphi had never undergone the ritual themselves - it was meant to be used on humans, not on fellow members of the Del-Sancti. For all she knew it wouldn?t work, or it?d take away every memory except the one she wanted to get rid of. She trembled slightly, tempted to just give up on this whole idea.
The image of Jack?s disappointed face flashed in front of her again. Her trembling stopped instantly and permanently. That was right, she thought. She didn?t really have a choice in the matter. If she didn?t give this a try, she?d be dead, and even being an amnesiac had to be better than that. Sango took a deep breath to calm herself again, pulling out her vial of puresalt.
One property the salt had that usually didn?t have any real relevance was the fact that it didn?t react with sea water. As Sango lightly tipped the container, sending tiny amounts of its contents into the ocean around her, they simply floated and bobbed along with the tides. This gave Sango more than enough time to produce a circle along the surface of the water, with herself firmly in the centre.
She leaned back, floating in the water as she looked upwards into the sky. That was the first part done, and unfortunately it had been the easy part. The next segment was considerably more challenging - in order to wipe this memory from her mind, she had to focus on it with all she had. This was why the ritual was almost totally impractical nowadays - it was necessary to have the human both conscious and willing to have their incriminating thoughts erased.
Slowly, but intently, Sango closed her eyes. She let the thought rise upwards again. The girl she?d swam alongside, the fun they?d had together, the disaster she?d barely avoided only to bring about another. It was not a pleasant experience - the feeling of painful realisation that had driven her to flee before returned in full force now. It was a feeling of absolute failure - she had made the biggest mistake she could have made, and it was only by willingly lying about it that she?d stay alive for longer than the next week.
Around her, the ring of salt began to glisten. It had taken almost her full week?s supply to power this - the ritual was meant for Journeymen, if not Sages. She?d have to go without it for a while, but there wasn?t much to use it for here anyway.
She could hear the spell coming to life, a light humming rising upwards for the sea beneath her. She did her best to maintain her focus. She had to keep thinking about that incident for the entire length of the ritual, or there would be all sorts of side-effects for her to cope with, assuming the spell even worked. She had to focus, had to endure, even if she didn?t want to see any of this. Even if she didn?t want to think of the girl again, see her struggling and fighting for her life, all because Sango had been too full of herself...
?Ah...!?
She let out a little cry as the memory came back to her in full force. The feeling of powerlessness, of guilt, swept over her more powerfully than any emotion she could remember. She began to squirm and fidget as if the thoughts were physically attacking her. She expected them to weigh her down and send her straight back down to the seabed at this rate, and it hurt so much, more than anything she?d ever thought of. Surely she could afford to think of something else just for a moment? Yes, just a little distraction. It didn?t matter if the lights around her were growing brighter and the rules specifically said not to derail the train of thought.
Just a little distraction. She?d kept on course for the most part, at least, so it had to work. There was no way
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It was the sound of gulls flying above her that lifted Sango from her sleep.
?Nnnh...??
She was confused. She didn?t remember gulls circling the islands; at least, not in the place where she usually slept overnight. She pulled herself up from her idle position, getting her bearing on where exactly she?d wound up. The Izu Islands were a good distance away from here, a good hour?s swim. She raised an eyebrow in confusion - she never came this far out from her post, even during her most thorough inspections.
?...Guess the tides must?ve carried me out here.?
Even as she said it, the idea seemed ridiculous. She had decided to sleep near the northernmost point of the islands, and she?d emerged well to the south of the archipelago. Unless the sea had been deliberately hauling her away from work, it was just about impossible.
And yet, Sango decided to believe it. She had no evidence, but quite simply there was no evidence to suggest otherwise. She thought back to the night before, looking for a clue as to why she?d ended up this far out at sea, but her mind was drawing a total blank. Yesterday was an absolute blank slate, without even a single memorable detail. There was a part of her that wanted to question it, wanted to understand this contradiction.
It was hastily overruled by the fact that the sun was hanging right over her head.
?Gah, noon already?! That means I?m really, really late!?
Discarding the thought for now, Sango rushed back to shore to start on her inspections again. At this rate she?d just have to settle for one sweep today, and make up for it with a more thorough search tomorrow.
What could she have forgotten, after all, that was more important than her work?