Kanako, UK, and others I put on my "hate list" (except UD and Mima, go fuck yourselves), I was just joking.
See, it's statements like that that make you seem unapproachable.
Even if you're joking, if someone doesn't know you well, how are they going to know? I know I didn't like you at first; I never heard any comments or rumours about you or anything (since I don't go on IRC), but I still thought you were a completely and unnecessarily rude person. Especially as an admin of the site, you just didn't come off very well. By
now, now that I've had a few months to settle in and know people better, I know you're just joking, but I think you're either too convincing or you take it too far. And when you're
not joking and you actually
do hate someone, you just look petty and little for going down to things like flaming, especially since you're the admin of the site.
Still, that's just the outward appearance.
Internally, I think you're a great admin and should stay. Behind the scenes, you do so much for the site, devoting all your freetime to MotK, in spite of the stressful life you lead. Through all the things people say about you, you really do care for the site, and it's obvious based on how far it's come, and the size of the community you've built. This is, by far, my favorite Western Touhou community (
far better than DStyle, although I do think the excessive DStyle trolling on this site goes a bit too far at times...). I think you should stay, but I also think it's really a matter of "do you
want to be the admin?"
(PS I would like to say right here that I think the shit that you're getting for the April Fools joke is
ridiculous. I just assumed the site was having problems, and when it came back up with a shiny new layout, hooray! I have no idea why people got so upset about it, the forum was down for
one day)